March 8, 2010

11 months

11 months since we said hello

11 months since we said goodbye
11 months where your daddy and I have cried every day
11 months of the deep hurt and pain
11 months of sadness
11 months of missing you
11 months of why
11 months of should have and could have
11 months of trying
11 months of healing
11 months of keeping your memory alive
11 months of struggling
11 months of nightmares
11 months of feeling so alone
11 months of aching
11 months of anger
11 months of navigating

11 months of pure love

1 more month until we should be celebrating you’re first Birthday.

Daddy stayed home today, the pain of missing you was too unbearable to face the world.  We are going to go visit your grave again today.

4 comments:

  1. sending you lots of hugs....

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  2. Big hugs for both of you today. I am crying at work thinking of how hard it must be for you guys.

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  3. Oh yes, the horrible anticipation of that one year mark. I remember it so well. Keeping you in my thoughts and heart. xo

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