June 16, 2010

I am down and I am up



We ordered this shirt hoping Elodie could where it home from the hospital the day she was born, however she was much too small.  The week before she was born we decided to stick with the traditional spelling of the name after Saint Elodie of Cordoue.















These last few weeks have been emotionally chaotic. I can't say I am depressed nor can I say I am great overall but if you called me every hour you may get an hourly update.

Elodie is so fantastic, she is adorable and squeezable and such a good baby.  We have lots of fun together.
Harrison, I miss you so much. Why has time not helped?  I am continually reliving last year, the days, the activities and the weather.  I wish you were here with me.  Harrison's monument was put in today and I am so scared to see his name etched in stone making this awful event even more real. 

Elodie I love you. Harrison I love you.

2 comments:

  1. You were robbed of so much, K. I am not surprised that your heart still aches for Harrison. I would be surprised if you were feeling at peace with it all right now - it hasn't been that long, not that long at all. And living all these baby things with E right now, things you never got to do with H, it must be bittersweet. We're thinking of you guys!

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  2. This onsie is beyond fabulous. I love it with all of my heart. Harrison will forever be a proud big brother.

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