A Mother’s Day Wish From Heaven

Dear Mr. Hallmark,
I am writing to you from heaven, and though it must appear
A rather strange idea, I see everything from here.
I just popped in to visit, your stores to find a card
A card of love for my mother, as this day for her is hard.

There must be some mistake I thought, every card you could imagine
Except I could not find a card, from a child who lives in heaven.
She is still a mother too, no matter where I reside
I had to leave, she understands, but oh the tears she’s cried.
I thought that if I wrote you, that you would come to know
that though I live in heaven now, I still love my mother so.

She talks with me, and dreams with me; we still share laughter too,
Memories our way of speaking now, would you see what you could do?
My mother carries me in her heart, her tears she hides from sight.
She writes poems to honor me, sometimes far into the night
She plants flowers in my garden, there my living memory dwells
She writes to other grieving parents, trying to ease their pain as well.

So you see Mr. Hallmark, though I no longer live on earth
I must find a way, to remind her of her wondrous worth
She needs to be honored, and remembered too
Just as the children of earth will do.

Thank you Mr. Hallmark, I know you’ll do your best
I have done all I can do; to you I’ll leave the rest.
Find a way to tell her, how much she means to me
Until I can do it for myself, when she joins me in eternity.

~ by Jody Seilheimer ~

The above poem was shared with me by my sister, she was the only one last year that had the strength to acknowledge me as a mother so shortly after we lost our son.  I chose to believe that everyone else felt too awkward to say anything to me, even DH said nothing and hid under the covers.  It was around this time last year I lost him to a deep clinical depression that he is still trying to crawl out from.  He said he tried to find me a card but it just made everything feel that much worse. 

Each holiday and celebration we try our best to get Harrison a card...it is not easy.  The last card was for his first Birthday, after 4 stores we lucked out and found a perfect card with the lyrics to Twinkle Twinkle, which was one of my first  blog posts .

This Mother's Day will be different as I have a live child but it will not stop me from spending it with my both my children.  On Sunday I will enjoy my "Sunday Waffiies" and visit the cemetery.

I wish all the mothers peace and strength on Mother's Day.

I have dreamed of the day when my child will proudly give me my first bouquet of freshly picked dandelions.