It has been a week and half since I left work as my employer phrased it as a "mutual departure". The first few days I was optomistic that this was for the best. I would find a job closer to home with more pay. This way I could afford the second car we desperately need and manage my life as a mother, wife and employee.
A few decent job have come up and I have applied but I have not heard back. I realize it is early in the game but I am sensitive to rejection. Why can't someone call? I need some reassurance that I am valued and wanted.
Rejection has always been something I have suffered with and the death of Harrison has hightened those feelings. I am trying my best not to get in a funk that my work did not value me enough to keep me, that other employers arn't knocking my door down. I too need to work on the feelings that I deserve something good to happen and for life to be an easy sail. As we know it keeps proving to me that is not the case for DH and I. Life is hard work and finding happiness is even harder work.
So, not only am I looking for a job I am working on keeping some bad feelings out of the way and staying happy.
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